This week I was sifting through hundreds of emails in my inbox (dating back to Christmas) and so I’ve been a bit behind in blogging this week. Only now catching up on my favorite blogs, I was pleasantly surprised to be tagged by one of my favorite blogging moms, Bron.
So I started the task of looking through photos to choose my favorite one of myself. Myself! Can you believe it? Have I had a photo taken of me without my son in my arms since he was born? I don’t know. He is such a huge part of who I am now. Mid-post he roused from slumber although he hadn’t even been asleep an hour so I was able to help him fall back asleep (breastfeeding magic!). As I sat there with him in my arms I began to think about photos of myself that stuck out in my memory. I thought of one from when Ali and I were traveling in Nepal. When I came back to my computer I went to my flickr account and found the Kathmandu, Nepal set. Although I originally had one of Ali and I together in mind, instead I chose this one:
We were sitting in a cafe on Freak Street playing cards and writing in our journals. It was August 29, 2004. We had been backpacking/traveling in SE Asia for a couple of months and were now in Kathmandu. During our stay there were several ‘bandh’ (strikes) in which sometimes we had to stay in our hotel and the streets were quiet; no one dared to go out. The strikes had been ordered by the Maoist insurgency (before they were in government). This was not one of those days and we found our way to the ‘hippie’ haven called Freak Street. When I look at this photo I remember how young and carefree I was. I am smiling at the man I will marry two years later. Did I know this then? Maybe. I’m tanned. Thin. I have my short, bleached blonde, funky hair. I’m wearing the necklace he bought me on an island off Thailand while he was traveling his way up to me from Malaysia, where we had met a month earlier. I am happy. I am living the dream of exploring places I never imagined I’d visit. I have no worries. Only an unmapped future before me. Which I embraced. Which brought me to where I am now. With my family. My beloved husband and son.
Sebastian’s first birthday. I am happy. All that I have experienced to this point has helped prepare me for this life. For this place. For this happiness. For this love.